In You Joy I Find

2011-02-09T16:24:00.001+08:00

WOOHOO

2009-02-23T02:15:00.002+08:00

i'm excited! :D

i'm one step closer to be able to do sth abt it

sth that you've placed a burden in my heart.

i really want to share my conviction and passion!

God may you fill me with yr wisdom

and that it'll be a great success

in equipping and empowering to be better ministers of yrs (:

the HEART and SKILL are important!

2009-02-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

loads of things on my mind.

my melancholic side is overwhelming me man.

God i really feel inadequate.

~~once again, i hv to struggle in this :(~~

i want to be like the little boy in the bible

that chose to give his 5 loaves and 2 breads -- the little that he had

to the Almighty God.

God, here i am, use me.

for yr glory.

another lesson on humility.

to learn to surrender to yr will.

2007-04-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

a prophet w/o honour
that was how Jesus described himself in his home town
how ironic it is.
ppl who are 'close' to you
seen how you have grown over the yrs
yet display disbelief in God's transformation in yr life
how frustrating.

i'm so gonna prove you wrong
God will never shortchange us when we serve Him; he'll never
meanwhile pls wake to yr senses
grow up la.

2007-04-09T01:14:00.000+08:00

wow
easter was great!
thk God for the easter team
they did a fabulous job!

just wanna thk God for the following blessings:
1) God loves me dearly
think that this easter i was really reminded of His great love. during svc, when shirley sang the song "why" -- that's it. i could feel the extent of God's love -- how much misery he put up with in order to die for us; how much physical pain he suffered; but he never complained.
this is how much my God loves me
when it was worship time, God revealed to me His love, to a greater extent. i kept sobbing and sobbing, i couldn't stop. i know that i really know that God loves me.
nth can replace that abundant love he lavished on me.
i want to cling on to His love
God loves me (:

so that day on my way home, i made a prayer to God again, of a prayer that i made some yrs back
"God, by yr grace, pls help me to finish this race. I'm afraid to lose you. how can i survive w/o you? God, if ever a day comes when i'm tempted to leave you, pls, by yr grace, pull me back to you."
i wldn't trade anything for my God. altho along this race, sacrifices have to made but God is more than worthy. i want to reciprocate His love for me and love Him back to the best that i can (:

2) Breakthrough in zion's svc attendance
God really blessed us with so many visitors and a no of cvs! praise God! nea hasn't been doing that well lately. but i can see that in this wk, we put in much more effort. thk God for many transformation of lives amg the believers. we see ppl really grow and break new frontiers
i'm so proud of you guys. so glad to be able to serve with you guys (:
anw jus to congratulate you guys, ZION HIT 48 for service and we have a total of 8 CONVERTS! hallelujah! altho, we missed the fifty mark(argh!), but i know you guys have worked hard! thk God for ZION! you guys rock!!!

and thk God for my team
thks for slogging hard
but it's jus the beginning *winks
more work to come :X

3)I had one visitor for easter service
yay! i managed to get my classmate to come. altho he didn't convert(yet), but i thk God for this chance to be able to share the msg of easter to someone. (but still, i wld be happier if he converted. hurhur) the joy of sharing the msg is so wonderful and addictive. so i'm looking for my nxt target. hehheh (*evil laughter)

wa, such a long entry
but God has been really good in my life.
ahh, how can i not be grateful to him?

2006-12-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

yay! i finally updated my blog.
today has been a really cool day.
you know what?
YVONNE TANG IS BACK!
omg, she called me lars.
then coincidentally she was in plaza sing
then we met up.
we hugged and cried.
rather i was the one who teared :X
but was really glad that i cld meet her.
it's like you really had so much things to say
that you don't know what to say.
it's been two years since we last met.
i dunno when will i get to see her again.
but thk God for today (:

2006-11-13T02:20:00.000+08:00

pictures of the past.
brings back so many wonderful yet ~~painful~~ memories.

this was NED1 at ultimate dare camp (:

these were some of the ne cls last yr at spring retreat

the four of us <3

NED at one of the NE events in 2004

i miss those times.

2006-10-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

to the special you:
for the past few days, i keep thinking abt you.
all the things you like, stuff you wld do,
just everything abt you.
i really really miss you.
i wonder will i get a chance to see you agn.
given another chance,
i'll treasure and cherish you more than ever.

________________________________

to you whom i used to trust:
i feel betrayed by you.
all along i've been deceived by you.
now i finally see who you are really are.
disappointing, utterly.
so this is what our friendship was all abt.
i feel kinda disgusted.
so all along who am i to you? a fool?
i hope one day you'll come to yr senses
and apologise for all you've done.

2006-10-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

today my mood has really reached pit bottom.
feel helpless and uncertain.
what does the future hold for me?
having lots of mixed feelings.
on one hand, i feel glad that i have the family of God to go through this with me
most imptly, i have God
but somehow singing "God will make a way" only managed to pacify my heart for a few moments and that's it.
on the other hand, it's pessimism, fear, hurts and what have you.

i'm sure i'm in for a big "treat".
time of testings and trials.
time to learn to have joy in God unconditionally.
time to fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of my faith.
time to let the wog lead me rather than my emotions.
it's time for growth.

oh Lord, how?
i have no one else to turn to.

2006-10-10T21:56:00.000+08:00

WWJD
What Would Jesus Do?

2006-09-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY
the 15th anniversary reminded me of many many memorable events when i was young in the church. looking back, i can nv be more grateful that i am in a church, serving the Lord and especially in Hope Church (:
i'm proud to be a christian and a hoppie (:
however, i was a little upset cos my ex sheeps wasn't keen on cmg. didn't really contact most of them cos they are having prelims but the one i wanted most to come didn't turn up afterall.

SUNDAY
i shared my conviction and values in ulm. was really quite scary. oblivious to most of the ppl, my hands trembled a little. opps. anw, through sharing i really re-convict myself of this belief that i have -- the belief that Jesus is the way, i can be a world changer, i can impact ppl's lives in a big way through my role in His kingdom.
what i touched me most ytd was that eelee msged me. she said,"... i was v encouraged by my testimony and so touched by wad God has done ... will always rmb walking with you to istana park and encouraging you that you can be a shpd..."
YES, i can rmb that day. was so discouraged cos i badly want to be a shpd and yet after working hard, no fruits came. then, eelee came to empwr me. wow, that was like 3 years back.
almost cried when i read the msg. was touched by God's faithfulness as well as how eelee really impacted my life so so so much. she's really one great ldr that i admire a lot, and i want to follow her footsteps as she follow God. without her, probably i wldn't be ard in church or maybe i'll jus be a mediocre christian playing some insignificant role in the church.

MONDAY
i felt @(*#@)(!_@)!*$@($*#$&@#)!@(*@&#(*@#&@(*#@ after gg to bcc to study.
uhm those who were there might know why.
sry wad an anti-climax way to end.
haha.
God bless (:

2006-09-13T21:17:00.000+08:00

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame
Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, "daughter" and "son"
Wrapped in the robe of righteousnes

i pray you'll come home soon.

2006-09-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

woohoo. i went out with sophia for dinner jus now.
great time together.
got to catch up with each other's lives.
laughed and ate prata. hurhur.
love ya sophia : ))))))))))

2006-09-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

you have been appearing quite frequently in my mind lately.
wondering how have you been,
for the past mths.
are you getting on fine?
hope that i'll get to see you again,
some time soon.
though we're not -that- close,
i miss you quite a bit.
somehow, i haven't really gotten over it.
pray you'll find yr way home soon

it hurts.

2006-09-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

really hard to defend this faith at times.
to say the truth, it didn't feel good at all.
sometimes, it's altogether draining to endure their persecution.
it hurts to see their eyes of disapproval and disappointment
it annoys me to hear how cynical and skeptical they speak of you and God.

the world thinks you're insane for committing to church.
the world is looking at you constantly, trying to find fault with you and Jesus.

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call i won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose
In the chaos
In confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

2 Corinthians 4:2
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

2006-08-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

oh how great.
i'm inflicted with the infamous flu bug.
super sian lors.
in front of me will always be my favourite item for the time being -- tissue paper.
how nice :/

homework's piling up though.
slept at 3+ last night jus to clear the gp essay and maths tutorial.
wad a torture esp when my medication can cause drowsiness.
alrights.
i'm just wallowing in self pity.
poor me, i'm sick.

2006-08-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

today has been a hectic, tiring but fruitful day. woke up in the morning in shock cos i scared i oversleep. den i realised that it was only like 5+ in the morn -.- went back to sleep and woke up in shock agn at 7+

was a little late for breakthrough 1000 but was glad i didn't missed out much. tink everyone really caught shirls' conviction.
this is not the end yet. we need to do more! we cannot stop until the whole world, yes, the whole world, has heard abt His love.
wa i want to have a deeper conviction. my faith is too puny, too insignificant. what i'm doing now is too little. really.

the sermon was ministering as usual. i tink pastor jeff really really improve so much
every since i came church. haha. like duh. but seriously i admire him a lot.
hmm shall learn to teach better.

anw, if i'm not wrong, i responded to God during sermon abt my giftings. act i've reflected over it before oso. initially i thought i've developed my gifts pretty well. i mean like not bad wad (lays' style). BUT i was so wrong. for my gift of evangelist, i tink i need to develop it further by learning to share the gospel in chinese, and oso to different age grps, to ppl with the pai kia backgrd(i've got trouble communicating with most of them). for my gift of musician/singer, i need to improve on my harmonising, learn to sing with diaphram, minister through my guitar playing, be a pwrful worship leader. for gift of discernment, i need to be more sharp in knowing when it is God speaking to me and when i'm jus tinking too much.haha. SEE! so much things to grow in. and i'm sure it's not exhausive.

oh after that, had uctm at rix. i taught zion on the significance of excellence.
God spoke to me even as i was preparing the teaching. there's no certificate of participation(cop) in the KOG. we need to run this race in such a way to get the prize, and not jus any prize but -the- biggest prize. and we cannot re-run this race. we've only got ONE life. make your life count in the KOG!
gi took over after the tching and he shared his heart as well. the spirit of discontentment was strong. we've got the heart, we wan to love God, we wan to serve God hard. yes zion's growing, but why it doesn't grow as fast as it shld? TOO SLOW. TOO LITTLE GROWTH. argh.

following uctm, lays and i left to meet pam. we went far east to shop. the shops close too early can? lays brgt 2 shirt and i brgt 2 earrings(again! haha) great to catch up agn. glad to hear that pam's doing well. happy that she've grown. got a sense of relief and joy :D

wow. wad a packed day.
sure learnt much stuff (:

2006-08-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

feeling stony now.
woke up early in the morn for pw mtg.
brainstormed for wr till 4 plus.
left for deb's hse to watch npd.
freedy and gi went as well.

i tink freedy is the epitome of craperism.
like seriously.
ok here's the lame conversation we had over sms.
freedy: you live nearby thomson area?
me: ya why?
freedy: that means you have bus 132?
me: ya
freedy: wow. that means you have strgt busto my house! i jus took it home.
me: uhm and then?
freedy: be more excited ma. cause i jus move hse. haha.

like this is anything interesting -.-
ok, freedy makes the cg more unique and laughable.
hurhur.

2006-08-07T01:24:00.000+08:00

this is me and natelie, the st nix new b :D

yay! st nix currently have four stable ppl le!
soon and very SOON, st nix cg will be established (X
woo, my wish will be fulfilled soon.
like finally.
thk you God for yr faithfulness!
you're nv early nor late but always on time (:

other grps in zion continue to grow GROW GROW too!
fifty by end of august!

2006-08-06T01:19:00.000+08:00

He has been and is patient with me when i've done wrong, always waiting for me to recognize my mistakes and to turn back to him.
He is kind towards me, providing me with all that i need this while.
He is not easily angered when i wilful disobey him
He keeps no records of my wrongdoings; His blood washes all my shame and guilt away.
He rejoices when I choose to walk in His ways by following the truth.
He protects me from harm by lying down His precious life.
He trusts in me; choosing me to be a soldier for His kingdom
He places high hopes on me, even when i start to doubt myself
He perserves; never once forsaken me although having seen the worst of me.

God is love.
God loves me.
I want to reciprocate His love for me with my life.

1 Corinthians 13: 4- 7
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

2006-07-30T18:58:00.000+08:00

woo! this week has been a fruitful wk. my dear zionites, thk God for yr hard work! we've see a total of 16 visitors come for closets II as well as NINE converts! wow, indeed God is faithful.

ytd, northeast had our cl retreat called DEEPER. we're greeted by candles when we stepped into the rc. quite a pretty sight. then we had warm towels waiting for us. spent some time in solitude with God. reflected abt God's faithfulness recently and i'm really grateful for all that he blessed me with. we also wrote our our blessings on paper and burnt them as a sweet aroma of worship unto the Lord.

zion core team left for rachel's house to bathe. we bought food frm rach's store. haha, we crapped, shared some past experiences and did crazy things. like everyone went high except rach and i who fell aslp :/

hungry ghost festival!

hair braiding time! see how deprived these guys are. they're having loads of fun - -"

super high jon.

us! posing.

at ard 430am, we went to join the rest who weren't slping yet at sr macs where we really slacked ard and jus enjoy one another's presence. after that we went the playgrd. at abt 6, we went to rach's hse to sleep.

the nxt day, we had a hard time waking up. uhm, i was hated for my phone alarm :/ then, we met with the rest at rc and went jalan kayu to eat teochew porridge buffet.

the food is not bad.

after this, i had mtg with my cls. they are getting more and more audacious and starting step over my head >:( haha but was fun.

yay! better go study now.

2006-07-27T22:43:00.000+08:00

sometimes it's good to just be plain and simple minded.
we don't always have to perceive things so complex when they really aren't.
sometimes there's seriously no underlying meaning in those words or actions
perhaps we shld begin to believe that things are exactly the way we see.
sometimes we should be naive and begin to trust in everyone we encounter
we don't need to put our guard on all the time, how tiring it would be.

it's good to be innocent .
to be free of all troubles and worries.
to a child, everyone is good,
the world is a happy place.
such thoughts are complexly simple;
yet simply complicated
how paradoxical.

2006-07-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TRACY!

we celebrated tracy's bday as a class today. we were SUPER noisy in the canteen. aiya, what do you expect for a class with so many girls.
tracy's super touched. hurhur.

highlight of the day! i met sarah chan in aj! omg, so happy to see her lars. my crap mate (: miss her so much.

after hse mtg, i joined NEA1 for cg. saw janice, the new b there. real glad for her :D following that was zion ctm. prayed tgt, shared blessings tgt and caught up with one another's grp progress.

yup, so we're aiming for 24 visitors and 13 converts for closets this wk! jiayou everyone!

sunday
gi's coreteam celebrated my bday at the mind's cafe at clarke quay. as usual it was fun being tgt. playing card games and board games and taking photographs (:

one thing i was reminded of is God's faithfulness in my life through gi's sharing. thk God for protecting me these 17 years, sheltering me frm the full impact the challenges in life could bring. really touched.

thk you, God (:

and thks guys for the wonderful bday celebration (:

2006-07-22T00:23:00.000+08:00

Why that drastic change?
All i see in you now,
Self denial; self delusion; hypocrisy
Stop trying to conform to the society
Quit trying to fit in
Just be yourself
That girl I once knew.

so much for my melancholy.

2006-07-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

what a happening day(:

I GOT BACK MY LOST WALLET TODAY!
I was so so so happy to get back my wallet altho the money are mostly gone besides my tithing cos i hid it (so i wouldn't spent it) and the coins. so glad to get back all my cards esp my ezlink, my condo gate access card and all the encouragement cards. thk God for His blessing :D

after school i was supposed to meet layling and rachel to go shopping. lays and i went zara first while rachel met us there. all of us were feeling uber hungry, and lays was insisting billy bombers so we went there.
when we enter the restaurant, there's this round seat that was reserved. but lays and rach went to sit there then i had a horrible shock. i was like, how come they so mean one, ppl reserve the seats alr then they still sit there. to my surprise, they reserved the seats so embarrassed, i settled down. then rach took out the laptop and said they got sth to show me.
while viewing the video, all of sudden, there's this grp of people behind me who started singing birthday song. I was like stunned la. they turn out to be the rest of my core team minus kar!OMG! being an emo kid, guess what i did? haha. was terribly touched. seriously i nv crossed my mind that they'll all come to celebrate my birthday lars. felt loved. thks dear(s) (:

had a great time of dinner.
tried to imitate lays' laughter.
laughed a lot till we almost hyper ventilate.
yayness! i love my core team ((((:

guess tonight shall be one of my favourite bday celebration (:

2006-07-16T23:19:00.001+08:00

Numbers 20:12
But the LORD said to Moses and Aaron, "Because you did not trust in me enough to honor me as holy in the sight of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into the land I give them."

The Lord has commanded Moses to speak to the rock and water will be poured out from the rock. However, Moses struck the rock twice with his staff instead. It was clearly an act of disobedience and a demonstration of faithlessness. Moses did get water out frm the rock as the God commanded BUT he did not obey God's instruction as to how he shld perform this miraculous act.
How many times has we, as children of God, failed to obey God completely? partial obedience is still disobedience and it displeases God greatly. And also leaning on our wisdom surely will lead us to nowhere in the end. Moses leaned on his own understanding in doing things and thus he did not get the promised land.
What is surprising is that he actually lacked faith, faith to believe that God would really let water pour out when he speaks to the rock. Hasn't Moses witnessed numerous signs and wonders and even departed the Red Sea himself? He has even met God face to face in the holy of holies. Why was he faithless then? sometimes, are we like that as well? although witnessing how God has transformed our lives, blessed our grp and so on, we still have the tendency to doubt in God 's power. why so?

I pray that during this harvest period, i will approach this harvest season with great faith, a ridiculous faith to believe in every word of the Lord. We shall plunder hell and populate heaven. It shall be done! FIFTY FOR JESUS!

turn my unbelief to belief.

2006-07-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

kinda dead tired now. it has been an evenful day for me.

woke up at abt 8 to go sch to prepare for band investiture. hmm i think it wasn't that fantastic after all but oh wells. i'm glad the J1 percs didn't do a bad job on the ensemble altogether, heard it was rather well received. hurhur. other than the part when i messed up :/
so we had lunch together as a section. had phototaking and 'prize' presentation as well. quite fun la. daowei and willian were gaying tgt.

then, i left in a hurry for service. was quite late :x but thk God i didn't miss out on the sermon today. think that God really reminded me of my central calling which is to proclaim His love to others. i seemed to have been too indulgent with the things i had to do that i neglect my purpose. i asked God today to give me a new burden for His ppl; to enable me to really know the heartbeat of God for the lost. i pray i'll really use my gift of evangelist to the best, being His ambassador to bring ppl who wld be part of the multitude, mentioned in the bible, praising His holy name.

after service, i hanged ard for a while before going to watch PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEANS: THE DEAD MAN'S CHEST. watch it with jessica, willian, edward and jasper. wa, the movie super long la. 2 1/2 hrs. many many events; got jessica and i confused. wasn't as great a movie as i expected, mostly cos didn't really have a proper ending and i was terribly sleepy. hmm, it's still worth watching (: pls go watch. haha.

alright what a long entry. guess i'll end here.

2006-07-12T20:15:00.000+08:00

check this out! pirates of the carribean trailer.

i'm definitely hyped up abt pirates and johnny depp! -screams. haha. it's gonna start screening in cinemas tmr! YAY! anyone wants to watch this movie with me? call me! :D

2006-07-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

guangyi, can you come back?
i miss you so much.

...

2006-07-06T12:46:00.000+08:00

Minor injuries are her self- inflicted wounds;
Bleeding real hard -- her heart.
It was a cry for attention,
Or perhaps a yearn for affection.
Does anyone hear me, she ponders.

Running in the wrong direction,
A search for a purpose begins.
But to no avail.
She asks in desolation,
Is this all life got to offer me?

I say Jesus is here.

2006-07-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

AHHH. i lost my wallet :'(
my $40 dollars are gone. my tithe and breakthrough pledge for the week are gone as well. my card for my condo's side gate is gone also and the bad side of it is that $100 is needed to replace it. my ezlink card is gone and i jus topped up last night.
ALL GONE.

wallet, would you find yr way back to me?

2006-07-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

wa. today i intended to study after joining nea1 for breakfast den in the end i dragged pam and lays to shop at abt 4.30pm. hahaha. but due to time constraints we shopped at j8:/ it ended up with a long dinner. we're like tai-tais la.

went ding tai fung first. the food was not bad, it's a fresh thing frm the usual oily food. nice nice.

us! at ding tai fung.

den we proceed to eat deserts. how sinful 8/ so we headed for swensens. ordered banana crumble or sth like tt. was nice too but a bit too sweet.

lays and pam ready to attack the banana crumble!

great to spend some time to catch up with pam n lays, and jus enjoy life. spent lots of money tho. ought to be more thrifty for the nxt few days.

2006-07-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

calling all the ZIONites out there!
thk God for all yr hard work for the past one wk. heard GREAT stories abt ppl going all out to gather contacts and i'm real proud that zion won the unit with the most no of contacts :D thk God for taking the initiative even i couldn't really be on the battle grd with us due to my mid years. this week we've see TWO andersonians crossing the line of faith! wow. can really see that God is moving :)

BUT as much as we delight in all these, we must have holy discontentment as well! the kingdom of God shld advance much much faster. the amt of contacts we've collected is good but not good enough! we've gotta galvanise ourselves for more contact gathering until all of us have at least five responsive contacts. i'm planning to go down to several schs to collect contacts as well. this wk we'll be getting to know our contacts better, so arrange meals, dota, wadeva. haha

these two months will be a crucial period. i pray that all of us will be on board tgt and give our very very best unto God bcos He's worthy. rmb that i'll treat the sch which hits their end aug goals first (: jiayou everybody!

FIFTY FOR JESUS!

IT SHALL BE DONE!

AMEN.

2006-06-30T22:53:00.000+08:00

sorta jus returned home.
had class farewell for guangyi jus nw.
super sad la.she's flying off on tues

alright guangyi and i were supposed to meet on the mrt train. but we got some miscommunication and we each ended up at the extreme ends of the train. SUPER LAME! cos we had to change train at city hall so we alight there and guess what? we met weilin and arlana as well. we came out frm diff cabins of the same train. STUPID.

guangyi me weilin arlana (i think i look quite nice here. heehee)

alright so we headed for east coast for bbq lo. some random photos here and there.

guangyi me abigail andy

class photo (but incomplete one)

nice photo of the setting sun (:

and of course, being so emotional; abigail,guangyi and me ended up crying. ok, it's all my fault. i played a very sad song. the atmosphere was so "tear-stimulating" hurhur. so abi and gy started to cry and in the end me too -.-

i will really miss you guangyi. you've been a great fren to me. brgt so much joy, laughter and spastism into college life. break times and lunch times were really fun, having you ard. life in aj will be much boring; now that it's left with abi and me. how cld you leave us :( i'm so sad. but i'm glad that we've met and that i managed to introduced my beloved jesus into yr life as well, really :D and i thk God for our lovely friendship. take care girl(: God bless.

<3

2006-06-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

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decided to upload some photos on some things i did during the june holidays(:

27052006
zion farewell for ppl going off to grads grp and other grps.
so happy together :D

30052006
AJ band concert. yay, section photo (:

07062006
taken on the last day of sch for guangyi. that's why i was so depressed

uhh. guang yi is leaving in 4 days' time. i will miss you girl! can't bear to part with you:( we'll be having class farewell for her at east coast park tmr.

07062006 to 10062006
of course, how can i forget abt encounter! camp? FIFTY FOR JESUS!

15062006
this photo was taken at yongkang's hse. was having nea1 and nea3 combine cg.

17062006
zion unit outing to marina bay after svc

20062006 this picture was taken during kar chian's birthday celebration. HAHA

what a busy holiday.
and it passed just like that.
it's time to be studious again.

2006-06-29T12:27:00.000+08:00

ahh. i'm so bored at home.
it's no fun when you're the first one to end yr exams whereas the rest are still taking :/
i was supposed to meet gi at st nix macs jus now but i got pang seh :/ gigi ng nv answer my call so i went home. and now i'm stoning and stoning and stoning. zzz

alright another blow, was supposed to go for rachel's cg ltr and then it's postponed till tmr. uhh, i seem to have nth to do then. actually i do, my holiday homework miss me. they are calling out desperately for me but to no avail, of course. haha.

but i'm still glad exams are over. at least the tremendous stress is almost gone. was feeling ultra stress la. i guess all the rest of the jc dudes who were studying with me at bcc the past few days were stressed up too. how sad, that's jc life.
this whole entry seems altogether depressing. pardon me for my random rantings.

check out this singer -- terranaomi.
http://www.myspace.com/terranaomi
she's got great voice (;

2006-06-28T20:09:00.000+08:00

frankly speaking, i don't feel really gd now. i'm supposed to be happy. my exams are over. but i have many things bogging down my mind. i feel like running away. run to somewhere safe; run to jesus and hide in his embrace.
negative feelings are flooding my mind. it is bothering me.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH.
why are things like that?
W H Y ?

God, please do sth abt it.

2006-06-25T22:45:00.000+08:00

exams are starting to take a toll on me
oh great, i snapped at someone today.
didn't mean to do it.
wasn't even really aware i was so mean.
what's wrong with me :/

if you guys wld like to bless me
i wld greatly appreciate for yr precious prayers.

monday -- general paper
tuesday -- econs and chem
wednesday -- maths and geog.

God pls help me.
i know it's too late to regret that i've not started earlier or that i've been procrastinating.
but jus anoint me and bless me.
come and be my source of strength and my refuge.

2006-06-24T23:19:00.001+08:00

you are my world
you are my child
and i lay down my life for you
you are the one
the one i love
no one could ever take my love away

this was what God "sang" to me during the sermon. it follows the tune of the song " you are my world" by hillsong. sermon was great obviously(:

uh anw i saw junhuang today! haha. quite happy to see him. kinda long nv see him le. he was evidently shining with the radiance of the Lord. mus be doing well in the adults ministry.
aye, the uls plus junhuang and peter went to chill out, minus luan and me cos we need to ~~mug~~ and oso cong. so sad! sobs. nvm, after mid years : (

and we took a grp photo!

2006-06-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

after reading through the posts a few days back which dates back to 2004, i thk God for His faithfulness in my walk with Him. there were posts that jus show how immature i was, how worldly i am( i think i am still, but less), how faithless i was, how much i took God for granted. i'm glad that ever since the last time i've blogged before i revamped the blog, i've grown so much.

i've learnt precious lessons abt trusting in God during times of uncertainties, how to have joy in difficult times, to learn to allow God to mold me in what way He wants to, and the list goes on.

i've seen many many life transformations especially after the recent encounter! church camp. people who were on the verge of turning away frm God, came back to God and realise their purpose in Him. people who were deemed as "gone case" suddenly were awoken to see their own foolishness. even several who have left for the kingdom of dark came back wanting to embrace light again.

i'm so proud to be serving such a great and mighty God! once again, i stand in awe of how much He loves me and how privileged I am to be called His own. this race is getting tougher and tougher for me. but i know i can nv bring myself to give up on this race. not this great calling, not this fabulous team i'm serving with, not this purpose in life and most imptly, not this undeserved relationship with the Almighty God.
I can nv bring myself to.

Acts 20:24
However, I consider my life worth nothing to me,if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me — the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace.

God, this is my prayer today. Amen (:

2006-06-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

wow! i just finish preparing the teachings
for ne training class later.
i'm super excited.
i know that God will speak to us big time ltr.
God i pray that you'll use me as yr mouthpiece
to teach yr people to be a better shpd for you (:

thk God for karchian!
i heard that she's bringing a sec one
SN fren for service tmr (:
anyway,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KAR!

2006-06-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

hello everybody! i revamped my blog!
like after one year. haha
special thks to lim lay ling (:

2005-07-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me!!!

yay! i'm SIXTEEN. ok i dunno whether this is gd or bad.
it's been a lllloooooooooonnnnnnnngggggggg time ever since i blogged
-looks at date of the prev entry-

my three birthday wishes
-my relationship with God: keep focused,keep running,
obey God,crave fer more of God,
love God more n more each day
-my grp: 1 unit in andss and 1 cg in sn
who loves, obey and serve God passionately by end aug!!!
-my studies: single point fer L1R5 fer o levels!!!

pls pray fer me:)
anw thks fer all those encouragements, greetings, msges, presents
really much appreciated:)

2005-04-14T23:32:00.000+08:00

i really nervous.
can't get to slp.
so near yet so far..
it's tmr.. ahhs
my heart is palpitating wildly.
will we get to hear this:"CHIJ St Nicholas Girls' School.... GOLD!!!"?
i wanna scream hysterically, i dun care
it's reachable but sumhow we haven't got it yet
will it be our turn tmr?
our long awaited-GOLD

2005-03-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

i'm frustrated.
the maths qtn do so long le still dunno how to do
~~crap lors~~
thoughts of playing traunt tmr keep running thru my mind
but i musn't and shldn't do tt
i really can't take it...
~~feels dumb~~
shall trust in God to help dumb me
give me wisdom to understand, God
help me, i feel so helpless.
i noe you hear my desolate cry

2005-02-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

it really saddens me
i dunno wad made ppl choose tt path
tt forbidden path.
think fer yrself
is it worthwhile?
ya, i'll nv comprehend
wadever.

today was qt a boring day.
went pamela's hse.
real nice hse. so cosy.
played mahjong and i WON.
hahas.
den went a no of places to walk.
played pranks
real hilarious
tt was to escape boredom
and reveal our true cheeky selves
wahahas

chinese new year has become an absolutely meaningless occasion
ok, perhaps not completely but it's like jus visiting relatives
but yet not really getting to noe them better
it's like sitting in their living rooms and stone

ok tmr got company dinner
looking forward to shark's fin and hongbaos
heh. no other stuff to look forward.
saturday have to go aunt's hse.
crap.begged so tt i cld go svc
ok, not begged, pleaded.
now my dad noes when's the svc held.
hai. hopes he doesn't restricts me in time to come
when the O's approaches

feel like slacking but i can't..
have to be diligent and study hard
ok, have to discipline myself
let me be a NERD fer JESUS :D
let me delight in studying n serving him.
tt shall be it:D

2005-02-04T23:44:00.000+08:00

oh mans, it's all settled..
i'll be dropping piano fer the moment till the Os are over.
feel kinda sad even tho i always say i dun like piano
i'll missing my t'cher lots lars...
hai.. wad's the big deal abt Os?
every single one is making a fuss out of it..

bcos of Os:
-i most probably wun be able to go fer family church camp
-go back to sch during the first 2 wks of June hols
-attend sum costly seminars during June
-do so many tys.
-i'm mugging like mad.
-have tuition

i feel like i've completely lost my freedom.
ok, it's not tt serious.
lemme find strength in you.
strength to carry on with life.
it's far too draining.
but i noe you'll be there for me:)

2005-01-29T23:04:00.000+08:00

oh mans!great day!
the service was fabulous!really!
the musicians really put in so much effort!
i feel inadequate..wahahas.
their playing skills are like so much better den mine...
sobs.. better buck up mans...
anyway, ned1, good job!
our service attendance is twenty-two ppl!
we had nine visitors!
jasmine, renying, serene, pu qin, kimberly,
yun ting, reena, chong hui, vernus
oh mans, too many ppl..
dunno whether i got their names rite.. hahas
and last but not least we had three converts!
reena, kimberly and yunting!
praise God!

hey girls, thk God fer all yr hard work.
know you girls are on fire fer God!
that's really great, keep it up!
we'll have a celebration
when we retained all these new believers.
i dunno wad to say...
i'm filled with so much joy:)
you girls are such agreat bunch of ppl
i'm convinced tt this is God doing his work thru our grp.
let's shine fer jesus:D

2005-01-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

heard a devasting news today
having mixed feelings abt it..
why do does things have to end up this way?
perhaps it's all God's plan

was desperately trying to hold back my tears
i guess you were too; more den anyone else
the thought of abandoning everything here is too cruel
hey dear, really appreciate this friendship we share
hope that it'll never fade away
for absence makes the heart fonder

2005-01-06T09:25:00.000+08:00

now having maths lesson..
in lab three...
wahahas, sarah so lame...
slacking period again...
feel kinda stony...
and perhaps sian...
i tink the sch v lame
a maths retest den call retest la..
say it's a maths revision test to make it sound nicer..
lalas, i passed my overall so i dun have to take:D

2005-01-02T13:56:00.000+08:00

i'm SEC FOUR!
time really flies esp fer 2004..
oh mans... i can't believe it...
anw, i'm seriously wondering how the sch tinks tt we can manage
time well betw our studies n cca... it's totally madness, can?
band pracs will be on tues, thurs n fri. crazy!
made my new year resolutions..
lazy to type ..
it's gonna be a exciting year..
great year ahead.
let's anticipate breakthroughs.
let's make our life count:)

2004-12-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

this is my convenant with luanie:

having been inspired by david hoe's tremendous
improvement in grades to be the top normal student,
luan and decided to shine fer Jesus as well.
our convenant is to score 8 A1s,
tt means we score an A1 fer each subject.
i put this put to hold both of us accountable.
we are gonna be diligent fer Jesus:D

another thing, we promised to revive st nix..
to influence n impact the sch
to leave a legacy..
to show all hopies tt it can be done...

2004-12-25T02:00:00.000+08:00

NED1 headcount
sngs: sophia, me,weiling,fiona(sec 2),natalie,fiona(sec1)
anderson:katarina,huiying,pamela,zhiyan,yixuan,qiaoling,layling
cindy,rachel,rebecca,sarah,melissa
others:yining
total:19 ppl!

praise God!
hey really wanna thk those who really worked hard during this period
we've seen a total of:
three re-dedications and four converts
there's more to come, this is jus the beginnning!
let's win the fastest growing cg again fer the nxt quarter!
i'm sure Jesus wld be pleased with this present:D
but let's not take it fer granted
let's love and care fer them like how Jesus wld, amen?
love u guys loads.

2004-12-14T15:58:00.000+08:00

yosseh, here to update on the camp..
really bored at home...
tink it's like the first day of this year i stayed at home fer whole day
oh man.... i keep eating cos nth to do..
got qt a lot things to eat oso... oh mans...
still a little seh...

day one: sat 11 dec 2004
svc was great!
nedone had five visitors and one convert!
welcome rachel to our big family!
thk God fer you fer taking a step of faith to come to noe God!
yay! so glad fer you! yr journey with God has jus started!
it's really exciting!

yeah, so after svc, we went le meriden there to wait fer the coach
so took photos in the meantime and briefed e accomadation helpers
yay the coach came and sat nxt to kat...
singing praise songs and the unit presentation song
finally reached Changi...
act i was kinda of worried of ppl will like
"huh.. the restaurant like tt..."
hahas, but thk God no one i noe did...

we settled down.. gideon briefed us and i briefed the ppl
den went fer dinner...
den came the full dress rehearsal fer the opening ceremony
a bit malu-ed at the clothes i wore...
hehs.. kept forgetting my lines...
really nervous before the skit started
wa, but thk God i rmbed it during the actual thing...
was act enjoying myself during the "it's my life" part
and of course thru out the play...
glad tt ppl enjoyed it.. yay!

praise and worship was great
and eelee's teaching was wonderful as well..
God spoke to me and i really repented...
hehs.. den all of us went back to our rooms..
found out no fans so xt, rach, jiashen, stephen n me went to take lor
in the end the guys dun let the girls take..
ate ice cream with soph, xt n rach..
and sumthing happened.. eh act is i sensed in my spirit lar
so we girls ate faster and hurried back to our rms
wanted for my turn to bathe.. really long queue...
was hushing ppl to sleep... sort of lost my temper..
sorry guys if i offended u...
room was really cold.. was frezzing..

day two: sunday 12 dec 2004
woke up freezing.. cos slping on flr..
washed up and stuff den went to spend qt...
realised i had to lead worship fer my grp
but my throat was in a bad condition...
can't even sing heart of worship...
kinda bad lar.. read the qt thingy... and shared...
den ate breakfast... the tau gay was gross..
raining... was praying fer the rain to stop...

fast forward to lunch time:
went to meet my grp vanquishers!!! for lunch
at first we're like a bit not enthu...
den had to cheer the cheers in the restaurant
till the ppl were more excited
yay, we impressed the games com with our cheers!
btw, we were first fer cheers!!!
hahas, games were rather fun but gross in some ways
i enjoyed the finale cos i bombed sum ppl... hahas
rather sad tt we can't finish all the games tt were planned
but thk God.. God really stopped the rain when we prayed
God is faithful!!! yay praise God!

fast forward to unit presentation:
really nervous fer the singing part cos my voice is v bad..
in the end i sang out of tune at tt impt part... wah...
anw i really enjoyed all the unit presentation...
like the stomp... the fighting part by nec.. really cool
but i liked the jc grp one's most...
really funny... amused by jon tay's acting
and was rather touching as well... yep..

den went back to the dorms.. and i took a nap b4 the sisters' nite
was abt bgr.. the bidding part veh lame.. ya lor...
den had a nice talk with luanie... till 3+
slept at like 530 like tt..

day 3: mon 13 dec 2004
last day of camp le.. so fast
packed up...
had best of the best
yay.. ned one won the fastest growing cg!!!
praise God let's cont'd to win the nxt one as well...
hahas.. took coach back to sr den took cab home with sunny n luanie
kinda sian to elaborate.. sorry dudes

acknowledgements
I wld like to thk God fer these ppl in no order of merit :
my accomadation helpers: sunny, clarence, stanley,
nicholas neo, nicholas frm JC,
thaddeus, zi xin, zhi xin, xiaoting
hey really thk God fer u guys fer the helping out with the room and stuff.
my most faithful helper: rachel fong...
hey girl really appreciate you fer helping me so much
in the accomadation stuff..really wanna thk God fer being
there when i'm stressed up.. yup
thk God fer you! thks fer all the sacrifices you make.. :D
my hospitality head: debbie!!
really thk God fer you.. fer sewing, helping out to the best tt u can..
thk God fer making time tho u still have sch..
my boss fer the camp: gideon
eh, tink i always trouble you...
calling u in the middle of the night and stuff
thk God fer you, tink it's a really sucessful camp! yay!
the deco team: dingchuen, huishi
thks fer buying the cloth, painting the banner and team flags..
thks fer sacrificing yr time and bearing with me... hahas
the preacher: eelee
thk God fer yr teachings, it was inspiring.. really wanna thk God fer
all the encouragements you gave me as well.. you're a great ldr.. :D
my fellow team leader: desmond
thks fer painting the flag and sacrificing during the games..
nice working with you... thk God fer you
jiancong
thks fer designing the prayer request and encouragement thingy
out of yr busy scedule... thks lots..
games com
thks fer the hard work in preparation.. had so many meetings jus
to make the games fun.. yay. thk God fer all of u.
the mm team
thk GOd fer sacrificing yr slp...
felt a little sad when the video can't really be seen
but really thk God fer both of you..
budden u all shudn't have sabo me...
the worship team
thk God fer the hard work you guys put in..
it paid off! yay:D
the drama people
thk God fer you guys.. had fun during rehearsal..
wyn: thks fer being encouraging
joel:thk God fer you fer denying yrself
my unit: NED
thk God fer participating in the skit! yay!
zixin: fer coming up with the script
and oso coordinating with the whole unit
dehui:thk God fer you fer overcoming yr stage fright:D
michelle:Thk god fer you fer the effort u put in in practising the songs
ned one: thks fer the times we shared having fun together
during the camp... love u guys lots!
my sheepies:hey really love u guys loads
thks fer showering me with so much love..
appreciate you guys a lot... :D
thks fer bringing joy into my life

and everyone who has contributed in one way or another
in making the camp sucessful... :)

shall end here or the list will go on and on.. nv ending..
bye

2004-12-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

v sleepy now.. and feeling feverish...
pray tt i wldn't have fever...
woah, praise God pamela's bro came to noe Christ today!!
welcome to the family of God, Harrison!
today's sermon was really well preached!
v motivating... P&W was great...
pity tt i can't sing cos i have sore throat...
felt lousy for the whole day due to my sickness...
ahhs... crap... hate to fall sick...

really feel compelled to share this:
there's gonna be a REVIVAL in st nix!
God really impressed in my heart fer these past weeks
esp during the student conference..
i really wanna use my remaining days in sch to
influence people... i wanna show Christ likeness to them
i pray tt i'll will and there'll be a strong n biblical grp!
Amen!It shall be done!
sings:there's gonna be a revival in st nix x2
frm the north to the south
frm the est to the west
there's gonna be a revival AMEN!
there's gonna be a revival AMEN!
there's gonna be a revial in st nix!

2004-11-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

woah... so fast and the weekends are coming...
can't stand it, time seems to pass so fast esp when u're serving God...
kinda of worn out this week esp today....
it's so crazy esp with my bro...
asked me to climb my condo stairs with him..
exercise huh?
goodness, it almost cost my life..
my condo is like 28 storey high la...
after reaching the peak, we climbed all the way down to level 1
and climbed up the stairs to my hse again
thk God i live on the third storey... oh man..
i bet tmr sure muscle ache one lor.. better pray hard dun have..
yay!i got 3 visitors tmr fer svc! my bro, my bro's fren and my junior..
exciting man!! cg confirmation fer svc was 13.
really hope wendy can come tmr..
alrite shall stop here. it's kinda late

2004-11-21T10:27:00.000+08:00

yo ppl!!! it's been a long long time since i blogged...
been really lazy to blog...
anw, ned 1 had 6 visitors frm anderson
and had three converts yesterday!!!
welcome lay ling, qiaoling and cyndi to our family!!!
so glad tt all of you made this great decision to come and noe God!!!
God has an exciting journey all planed fer you!!!
yesterday sermon was great!it reminded me several things..
i had a fruitful week,really had better time management this wk
yep. i guess i stop here..
shall blog nxt time when i feel like it. hahas

2004-10-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

ok, there's sumthing wrong with my msn
can't sign in... :(
decided to abstain or rather fast frm msn for 10 days.
if u see me there, dun talk to me cos i'm not suppose to be there
but u can shoo me and ask me to leave...

anw, today went down to changi village again
realised tt the accomadation was not tt bad..
last wk, we viewed the wrong units, tt's why..hahas
but it's still a big headache...
dunno how to squeeze so many ppl in three units
God help me!

time is runnning out..
one week left to o level chinese
i'm still slacking.. ahhhs
mus be hardworking!!!!-chants-
ok, i'm going to study now.. nites:)

2004-10-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

watching singapore idol now..
time fer advertisement so i blogging...

led worship fer pm the second time today
sang out of tune again. so loud sumore...goodness..
i tink today i'm more confident den the last time..

oh man, got many mishaps on the way home...
i overshot my stop today...first time...
was sleeping and i woke up when the bus drove away
frm the stop i was supposed to alight..

ok, after tt i walked to my hse
den i decided to withdraw money first
after i withdrew money i was putting it into my wallet
den i didn't notice there was a step.
and i FELL DOWN.. ya again.
hahas, ok wait i haven shared the climax

so i was like wadev den i cont'd walking home
and when i reached home, my bro passed me the key
i used too much strength to open the door.
ok guess wad?
the key broke...
hahas!!!! so i was like omg!
ok... guess i'll be scolded ltr when my dad some home...
oh wells.. shall go do confirmation..
hehs

2004-10-18T13:10:00.000+08:00

now in sch library...
bleahx...
received so many papers... last one at 2pm
my lit paper...
hai this time did v v v v v badly...
not at all God glorifying...

God i promise to do well nxt year..
i wanna shine fer you.
-prays hard-

2004-10-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

today has been a great day!
today our grp has two converts, yixuan and wendy.
yixuan frm anderson and wendy frm amkss:)
kat and i will be follow upping on wendy:)
oh yes, we have five ppl in anderson alr therefore a cg is established le!!!!
-cheers-

anw, a lot ppl got a shock frm me...
they ask me why i dress until so formal...
ok wad.. anw the necklance was qt irritating...

oh ya, a lame thing happen today...
can't believe tt i was tt blind...
as i was walking frm starhub to istana park fer seed..
i was toking to kat la den i didn't see this huge pillar or wad it was
so i banged rite into it and it happened tt the pillar is v rough
and i'm wearing sorta slippers la so my toe was scratched
and i screamed... stirred a little commotion...
bad kat was laughing at poor me..
toe was bleeding...blood oozing out frm the wound
ok.. wadev..
the toe is still hurting now...
got pus come out...
-wails-

sermon was powerful.
made me tink once thru abt the purpose of my life.
i've decided to follow Jesus, there's no turning back.
i shall glorify Him
i shall obey Him
i shall spread the love of Christ, using my gift of evangelism
help me Lord to live everyday to the max. yep

yay, going follow up on wendy tmr.
going to the chalet before tt to check the place out
monday shud be going out with my contact.
alrites. shall end here.
oh ya, i'm gonna studying chinese fer O's alr.
my dad wud be tutoring me fer the zhuo wen and ying yong wen.
zhao~

2004-10-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

argh! headache!!! irritating...
i can't stand it...

anw today's been a nice day.
zhiyan got holy spirit baptised! so glad fer her:)
anw, she's a really sweet gurl.she gave me stuff.
yay, tmr ned1(sadly w/o our CL, soph who has ushering)
will be going to take neos together:)
so exciting...

ok, wanna go rest.zhao~

2004-10-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness...
we're getting back our paper tmr...
-runs abt like crazy-
ok, shld calm down...
eh i'm really not looking forward to getting back our papers...
this time is the first time i nv finish studying for so many subjects...
ok, since i've alr handed everything into God's hands
lemme have peace in my heart...

alrites, anw tmr gonna follow up on zhiyan with huiying
can't get huiying lae...
pray tt tmr will be a fruitful day:)

2004-10-11T20:35:00.000+08:00

oh no... i'm slacking... it's the last paper tmr but somehow i can't bring myself to study...
chinese... chinese... seem to start dreading chinese...
oh no... God help me not to procrastinate... pls...
ok, i have to study! i have to! left with 3B, a few chapters...
really dun feel like studying...
ok shall make a decision...

pls let be enjoy studying chinese....
God help me!
ok, i have to go fer piano lessons now..
hahas, yup it's late
zhao~

2004-10-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

wow, i feel soooo blessed and encouraged by my new b, zhi yan:)
she sent me a msg to encourage me during exams with these two verses:
Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength

2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made
perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my
weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

so encouraged by her... i'm so glad... she's growing in the Lord:)
thk God fer her!

2004-10-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

added entry: got reminded abt sum stuff when i read kokleng's blog
abt ppl leaving God and stuff
was qt disturbed abt the fact tt God has been so good to us
and yet ppl dun appreciate it and jus leave when they feel like it..
it's so sad and devastating, isn't it?

was toking abt sumthing like tt in macs with rach, dingchuen and huaxiang
it's true... we mus really guard our hearts
it will be too late when our hearts start to harden den we start to take guard
many ppl frm church come and go, no of them are even close to my heart
den why did i stay on?
would u stay on if yr closest frens in church, whom u poured yr hearts to, have left?
would you?

2004-10-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

woohoo! exams gonna be over real soon!
yay, i'm really v excited now...
can't wait fer exams to be over and can start collecting contacts...
harvest is soooo near! i'll rise up to be a CL!!
and katarina to be a shepherd!
and zhiyan to be a follow-upper! yay!
i'm so happy today during svc!
our whole cg was worshipping and praising the Lord like nv before!
God is really doing a wonderful thing in our grp!
we grew during exams! frm 4 to 6!
it'll be soon when we'll be a strong 10 ppl grp loving & serving Jesus!
i'm jus so excited tinking abt wad God will and can do in our grp.

nxt sunday, we'll be having cg outing!!! yay!so long nv have cg outing le:)
so exciting... can u feel my joy?
ned1 rox:)

thk you God fer wad u've done in our grp=)

2004-09-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

Cast all you worries and anxieties on Him, for He cares
can't help but feel stressed... exams is like 1 day away...
first paper: eng paper 1 and e.geog
hope i can finish revision...
shud i go tuition fer a maths in the evening tmr?
-in a dilemma-

2004-09-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

I'm stressed...
oh wells, i shudn't be... cos God is here with me...
i mus learn to tap on God's unlimited power
instead of my weak little feeble attempt to study hard and do well...
when i'm weak den i'm strong
i wanna be stress free... ahhh...

2004-09-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

wails- i'm having a headache. sobs:(
anw, ned1 has two converts today!
pamela frm anderson and desireen frm ahmad ibrahim.
both r sec two. yay!
welcome to the family,
pamela and desireen!
act dun really feel like blogging...
hahas, anw, my piano tcher v funny. she called me today.
she asked me whether do i still celebrate chidren's day.. hahas, how lame.
shall stop here.

2004-09-20T22:48:00.000+08:00

woah, jus now eelee taught ee voon, soph, dehui and me
abt the need to be diligent when u lead ppl...
dun really noe wad's the topic of the teaching but it's sure a powerful one

yep exams are coming... really pray tt i'll be hardworking
i wun procrastinate. i wun slack
For His glory, i will excel...
watch out, i'm gonna score so well tt everyone will noe tt it's God working thru me
yay:) zhao

2004-09-18T23:37:00.000+08:00

whoa...it's been donkey years since i blogged... too lazy to blog lar
but i decided to blog today cos it's a really special day:)
got tons of blessing to share:)
blessing #1
during first svc, my bro called me & asked me whether he can come fer 2nd svc
cos he say he too bored at home. sumore he brgt a fren frm city harvest
of course, i say can lar... anw, the thing is tt i always invite him and he always reject my invitation but this time he wanted to come out of his free will..
not tt i force him to come the other time.. yup.

he came fer svc but he didn't convert lar.. buden praise God, he's more responsive now
it's alrite.. there's always nxt time:) he 'll come to noe God one day:)

blessing #2
our cg grp attendance fer svc hit 9 ppl:) we had 5 visitors today!
praise God. we improved tremendously frm an attendance of 3 to 9:)

blessing #3
these few weeks as st nicks ppl noe, i'm qt broke lar
cos i paid qt a lot fer our unit's rc deco and they haven return yet
den my allowance is supposed to last me till the end of mth so tt's really bad
but during svc, altho' i not much money, God challenged me to give to the best tt i can
so i paid my tithe and offering by faith. and indeed God blessed me after svc:
-more den half the money was returned to me
-my uncle passed my dad angbao fer me which is supposed to be my b'day gift,
a belated one lar, and my uncle gave me $60, which was more den usual
so my financial crisis was over:)

blessing #4
God blessed me in my studies as well...
there was this chinese test on 2 days ago thursday..
all the sec 4 express wrds were tested
buden i was real tired on wed night and by den i only finished up to 4A
so i jus briefly went thru 4B and went to bed.. but i didn't study zao ju
so the nxt day was a little scary fer me...
but den i decided to trust in God tt he'll bring me thru the test
the paper was alrite..
and when i got back the paper the nxt day, i got relatively high fer a test i didn't really study
i got 86.5:) yup, tho many ppl score 90+ but den really thk God cos i was expecting 70+ only. yup, yay praise the Lord.

blessing #5
my sheep, katarina blessed as well
she gave me chocolate:)thx sheepie, luv ya

God will bless u abundantly cos God is a great and wonderful God:)

2004-08-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

wahahas, jus cracked a lame joke again.
amused at myself as well... tink i really qt qian da at times...
sat down jus now to plan cg growth fer my side by by september.
conclusion:
-me: a cl!
-retain new b
-2 new b/lost sheep who will re-commit
-kat:follow upper of 2
-no of new b: at least 2
warning: this is a faith goal.
it will and shall be done!
a new grp by mid september: ned FOUR
it shall be a dynamic grp who loves and serves God wholeheartedly to the very best:)

zhao fer qt~

2004-08-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

yoo... jus bathed... yah, a bit late..
but so shuang.. cos had a cold bath...

went rc today since morn... yup i nv go tuition...
opps, yup i pon tuition. but my dad allow ma...
yay, today not bad studied qt a lot as compared to wad i will study at home..
gonna study again after 12pm. feeling stressed jus now...
end-of-year exams are coming and my piano exams
i'm getting all the exam jitters... bleahx

the table tennis match was not really excited
kinda of disappointed... li jiawei wasn't really focused this time
but wad to do. she gave her best shot le.

anw, wanna share this promise tt God promised me
if i diligently obey Him, it will come to pass:
Ezekiel 36:9
I am concerned for you and will look on you with favor; you will be plowed and sown,
10 and I will multiply the number of people upon you, even the whole house of Israel. The towns will be inhabited and the ruins rebuilt. 11 I will increase the number of men and animals upon you, and they will be fruitful and become numerous. I will settle people on you as in the past and will make you prosper more than before. Then you will know that I am the LORD .

2004-08-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

today's been a bad day fer me...
things dun seem to go right... or maybe it's jus me
was so frustrated many times today tt i broke down...

i got accused during band prac fer "being rude" and "being playful"
wadev.. i'm NOT being rude, it's jus the way i speak...
and i NEVER even say jokes during band prac so how can u say i'm not serious?
pls do not judge things in yr own viewpt... dun be too judgemental
if i did i'll admit, i'm jus so flabbergasted by yr accusation..
after so many yrs of frenship, u still dun noe wad kind of person i am?
i'm so disappointed.. really sad... u've really broken my heart.
maybe we need to talk things out...

nxt, katarina msged me tt she's ill and she can't go fer svc
so her two contacts dun wanna come as well...
another blow... cause my heart to bleed once again...
confirmation was alr bad enough.

following were minor stuff which i dun wanna elaborate much
but these things intensify the pain.. adding on... so unbearable.
i was sorta in a emotional turmoil... it was hurting so so badly

but thk God fer eelee
she saw tt i wasn't the usual self
she came to encourage me on and spur me on...
thx eelee, i can't ever thk you enough fer.. you're really a great ldr:)
a wonderful blessing tt God has placed in my life

i decided...
i'll move on frm these...
start off all over again...
cos when i look to God,
all these circumstances will fade away:)

2004-08-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

yossie... today's been a tiring day(again) but really meaningful.

in the morn almost late fer drills... thk God i arrived a few mins b4 8am...
sec one sqaud laughing like mad when i asked them to say timing one by one
dunno wad's so funny oso... they dun wanna tell me...

jess approached mr ong whether we can go to thailand fer music exchange
mr ong said yes(!!!) jess n i were like cheering
so exciting... so if we're really going den it'll be late nov or early dec
most prob going n will be sharing room with my nu ren, yvonne(hahas)
can go shopping, go bangkok, maybe can go visit hope(bangkok)... so fun isn't it?
wahaha... really looking forward to it -grins-

went down nexus with xt after band.
we made it fer pm! first time after band resumed tt i actually attended the whole pm
svc was great! sermon was powerful. God spoke to me a lot... thk God fer shirley:)
anw, i oso wanna thk God fer my sheepie, katarina.
hey girl, i tink God really see yr desire of wanting to take care of His flock...
thks fer all the hard work you've put in..
tho you may not see fruits yet, God will surely surely honur you:)
thx fer supporting me. you've really been a blessing
come'on jia you this week we'll see converts, amen?
let's break cg into ned4 by end Aug.
nxt week shall be a week of harvest!
cont'd to cling to God's promise cos he's faithful forever

i really wanna thk God as well
God is really a great God
He blessed me with a convert, jingwen during the ecg
and now katarina alr has two confirmed visitors, sharon n meiyi fer 66th street
praise the Lord. you can do it too:)

2004-08-12T00:46:00.000+08:00

woo.it hasn't been tt long since i blogged bcos i alr wrote 2 entries b4 this but i didn't come out..
hope this one will work.
anw, really wanna thk God cos my junior, jingwen converted ytd during our ecg.
i mus retain her no matter wad.. hahas:) really wanna shower her with love!
there's this prob: i dunno her well.. she's quite responsive la considering it's the first time i ask her out.
really v tired now, reached home at 11+..
went to the thai band concert... wasn't as good as the previous one. but well they were still v good... well well, i'm inspired. shall learn how roll on tampani and triangle even better, learn how to play mallets using 4 mallet sticks really well. i tink gtg now cos got tons of things to do...
~zhao

2004-07-25T16:10:00.000+08:00

days since i last blogged...
feel quite sian abt blogging nowadays...

saturday
band prac resumes on sat now... we played really badly ytd...
was like bleahx. miss sia was v angry with us. i was pissed with myself as well.
played really lousy ytd during combine.during sectionals i cld play but den after tt was like ...
*speechless* dunno why i played so many many wrong notes lors...

cabbed down with xt n my junior,crystal to nexus
svc was nice! i tink nel and gwen sang really really well. the rest as well but maybe missing sum X factor or sumthing... crystal was really stony... i tink nel sang the four seasons song better then the ally mcbeal one... sad tt no convert during this harvest period but nevertheless i'll continue to work hard

ne centrestage was rather fun...
we(neb & ned ppl) did sum last min thingy... but at least it's quite funny...
i almost lost my voice after singing the MLTR"you took my heart away" song
it's a nice song , isn't it...

anw, really wanna thk puaylin.guihao.eelee
thk puay fer the wynnie the pooh thingy and the postcard
thk guihao fer the keychain
thk eelee fer the b'day card
i'm really touched:)

2004-07-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

happy 15th birthday, xiaoting
:) now it's my turn to wish u happy b'day
hey you've sumone whom impacted my life greatly...
now my actions n how i speak oso like you... hahas, ok tt's not the main pt
you're really an excited girl fer God
i oso really admire you fer standing strong in Christ and remaining joyful despite unhappy situations. how you love yr sheep, always mentioning abt them in class and stuff...
you're v teachable as well.

really thk God fer you fer being such a blessing in my life...
making my life more interesting with yr jokes, ulu actions & malu-ing incidents...
thks fer lending me a listening ear when i'm down
thks fer correcting me in areas of my life tt i'm not walking right with God
thk God fer such a wonderful sis:) you're more than wad i can ask fer:)
enjoy this special day and may God bless you even greatly:)
i luv you

2004-07-20T22:57:00.000+08:00

ok, got some aknowledgements to make:
thank you onyu.shuyi.xt.yvonne.huiyingyueh.janice.jesswee.theodore.rachfong.guihao fer yr sms:) thx so much, it really made my day
thank you sec one squad fer the squad present. it was really sweet of all of you
thank you rachchia.on yu.pamela fer the piglet
thank you xt.siewluan.soph.dehui fer the star cushion
thank you xt.siewluan.soph fer singing b'day song in the canteen which was so loud tt almost the whole canteen knew it was my b'day.i teared a little.really touched by u guys:)
thank you my jiu ma & er jiu ma fer their red packets, sum other expensive thingy & the b'day cake
thank you dad fer the discman
thank you ah ma fer the ang bao
thank you others who gave their well wishes...
of course not forgetting,
my dearest father in heaven...
thank you God fer all you've done fer me these 15 years.

2004-07-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

hahas, i'm at home now...
not so often am i home so early...
actually wanted to come home to prac my piano but den i not interested...
piano's so boring (no offense) to me...

anw, passing out parade(pop) is finally over...
so sad tt sec 4s are gone... missing meiying lots esp...
anw, i'm really happy tt i'm given the post as a sc (squad commander) fer the sec 1s this yr
i'm excited yet nervous taking them tmr fer drills fer the first time... so scary...
i tink it's really God's plan... if u wanna noe ask me:p
anw, i'm really happy fer shue li!!! she's made the band major!!!
really liao bu qi:)

anw, really wanna work really hard on sowing on my contacts...
i wanna see breakthru!
break cg! i'll take ned5!(ned4's fer dehui) hahas
plan properly le...
zhao~

2004-07-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

today was lunchtime concert...
played rather badly i mus say...
so many many mistakes, esp, the mallet solo of American Grafitti
but i'm glad many many ppl came to listen to our music:)
altho v little publicity...

this wk v v hectic cos got ESS n pop...
v tiring... n i nv do a lot of hw..
feel like slpy now but i'm gonna finish as much hw possible..
shan't procrastinate further..
gonna study soon.. God help me to shou1 shi2 can2 ju2...

2004-07-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

i'm so much more energised now...
i'm so worn out today...
after a long day at sch, had mcg at rc
den went out to buy pop present

i tink i improved my chairing skills, yay:)
so glad today's chairing was much much better den last wk's one
at least it went rather smoothly
so glad kat brgt her fren today fer mcg
can see she's really putting a lot of effort
thank God fer u, sheep:)
u're close to becoming a shepherd le!

went ps to buy pop present
so tiring... went yamaha n this guy was playing on a electronic drum
so cool the beat... i like the beat tt he played
gonna try tmr during band.. hope i rmb
reached home with many many bags...
i'm so tired...

anw, tmr's lunchtime concert
hope all things so well...
n tmr's section thingy...
God bless us:)

2004-07-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

yay, i finally got a new discman after using the old one fer 5 years..
the new discman is kinda cool.. sony:)
anw, i'm excited fer nxt wk MCG
i'll be chairing with my wife, jocelyn. hahas XD
wah, the excitment is mounting as the clock tick
i'm gonna use tmr to the maximum, not gonna waste my sunday away...
things to do:
-plan timetable
-call my contacts up
-study fer physics test
-finish all hw
-tink of more SOW strategy
eh, dunno le... shall add on to the list if the need arises..
zhao~

2004-07-07T12:46:00.000+08:00

i'm at home now.. nv go sch...
had been having headaches fer the past few days...
on n off ones...

tink sch life nowadays r really boring...
i have to drag myself to sch now...
during pri sch, got fever oso want to go sch lors..
hia, actually i really hate sch now..
but wad can i do... none of the subjects i take r interesting..

ok, enough of sch...
yay, ltr got cg... i'll be leading worship n chairing..
kinda nervous, it's long since i chair alr...
the last time was in neb6(more den a year ago)
n siew luan had to take over me... hai...
shan't let past experiences hinder me...

ytd went to collect more contacts...
got 9 more... shall be faithful n diligent in SOWing on them
yay, split cg!!! so i'll take ned3!! wahaha...
-grins widely-
i dun have to see soph in cg anymore...
jus j/k :p

2004-07-05T00:38:00.000+08:00

jus now my leg itching den i tot wad it is
it turns out to be a BBIIIIIIIIGGGG BBBBBIIIIIIGGG
BETTLE

anw, i was watching "the eye" with my dad jus now
he v lame... yup, my dad is lame
in the beginning of the show, he started meowing
(he always does it in horror flicks)
den he asked me how cum this show so special got cats one
den i was like o.O diao
it's so obvious it's him lor...
den he was laughing there.. wadeva lar

after tt, got one scene... v scary..
i was putting mopiko on my leg cos v itchy
so i wasn't really paying attention
den the woman(ghost) shouted suddenly n it was really loud
so i xia4 dao4 n i screamed loudly
my bro got xia4 dao4 by me n typed wrongly on msn
hahas... so lame... den i "scold" my dad y he on the volume so loud

in the morn, went to rc to shepherd katarina...
today's worship's singing is horrible cos i sore throat...
i mian2 qiang3 lead worship...
cos too ji1 dong4 den i after no voice at all...
after tt, left rc at abt 2pm.. went to J8..
yay, i finally bought my nice nice converse sneakers!!!
wait v v long le.. den thk God tt time nv buy on impulsion cos no discount
i luv it:)

anw, my hse got A LOT of mosquitoes...
and i really mean i lot... cos i got more den 10 mosquito bites
n i killed one jus now while watching the eye
my dad killed one as well... really hate them lors

anw, tmr going macs to study..
pray tt it's fruitful time..
staying up to watch the match with my bro...
gonna start le.. my bro slping now... ltr mus wake him up...
he so naughty go betting... smack him ar...

realised i'm really lame nowadays...
cos i'm in a lamified mood these days so i say more jokes
wahahaha...

2004-07-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

God heard my cry...
toking to Him jus make me so comforted..
made this heart of mine jus melt away...

woah, tmr i'm gonna shepherd katarina...
looking forward.. pray tt it's gonna be ministering

anw, i was really really sleepy during the svc esp during sermon
-guilty look-
didn't really catch much of the pts
trying my best not to fall asleep...
the funny thing is soph tried to boo me to wake up up
but i no reaction so she v sad,hahasXD

after went fer dmm at rc
i feel so "ahhhhs" to break cg...
God can use me greatly if i allow Him too
therefore i shall be diligent, discipline n faithful
i shall cling on to this task of winning souls
-clings tightly-
went home with dehui. had a sorta heart to heart talk
learnt sumthing frm her... thx, sis:)

i'm really happy tt ned hit our cg fund goal!
we collected $52!!exceeded by $14!
yay, nxt week, let's do it again. thk Go fer all of u:)
-yawns- v slpy... shall go slp soon

2004-06-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream
But you...
Saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home
And now...
I'm in love

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold (living in a world so cold)
You are there to warm my soul (you are there to warm my soul)
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start
And now...
I'm in love

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
We'll never be alone

2004-06-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

i'm dead beat... so tired...
i reached home at 11.30pm...
was studying at serangoon macs till 11 after leaving starhub

today's svc was really great...
it had been a life-transforming one fer me
i'm really so touched by the sermon tt i almost cried
but pastor jeff said a joke and made everyone laugh
including me... but was really touched by God's love..
God is able
i was reminded to be even more patient with my dad
sumtimes i'm really flabbergasted at his accusations
n really feel like retaliating
sumtimes i did give a rude answer,
sumtimes i tried to tok to him patiently, humbly
so frm now on, i decided to be respectful n humble all the time
the stars shine the brightest when the night is the darkest
i'll rmb tt:)

anyway, NED ppl... pls pay yr rc fund!
our unit short of $76 n we only have 2 wks to raise this amt of money
so pls! PAY YOUR RC FUND!!!

2004-06-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

got this frm soph's blog...
hw tt i've done n not done...
~~chang wen suo duan + zong he tian kong~~
tian xie han zi
~~english test paper~~
chinese test paper 1
chinese test paper 2(half way)
physics test paper(finishing tonight)
chem test paper(did MCQ, n a few qtns of section B)doin tmr morn
am test paper(did half way, finishing)doing tmr morn
em test paper 1(did 3 qtns)
em test paper 2
ss test paper(tried to do, but to no avail)
geog test paper
lit test paper
zhuan ji(did one entry)
study fer chinese test

wah... there's a lot hw rite?
anw, as my msn nick say:God is doing sumthing wonderful in our grp
this sec three anderson gurl decided to re-commit... woah
God added to our numbers n we hit our cg goal...
n my calissa n enid r cuming 4 cg again..
many things happening...
all in all, God is great. really great
thank God fer God:)

2004-06-25T18:27:00.000+08:00

i'm got back frm camp abt an hour...
feeling v stone...
i tink the camp v waste.. v disorganised
we(camp comm) did a bad job, didn't mean to be discouraging
but seriously, it's really a ~~good~~ camp...

hols is cuming to an end soon...
got lotsa unfinished hols hw.. gonna mug...
i wanna be a guai1 kia4...

anw, i figured out how ta play still on the piano
i'm so proud of myself:) -pats back-
i absolutely luv tt song!!
going to eat dinner...miss lots of ppl...

2004-06-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

allow Him to use you fully.
-dun limit yrself frm doing great things frm God
n receiving His blessings by not being a good steward
of the things tt God has entrusted you with...

tink i'm not faithful n diligent enuff...
hia.

2004-06-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

i'm back frm dinner at my aunt's hse..
all my cousins frm my mum sidev rich one n hses v big
but i'm not close to them...
they asked fer caterer fer our dinner, rich rite... hia...
anyway, sumone asked my bro he sec wad..den i said sec two
so she asked me i sec one izit... wah...
i only shorter den my bro ma... where got look like sec one...

anyway, my another cousin jus came back frm australia
n she gave my bro n i NOUGATS!!!
so happy...
spent 1+ hr playing pool... my cousins got a rm specially fer pool
really cool...
yup, i'm gonna study ltr.. act really soon. hope i have a fruitful time

2004-06-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

Name one person/people who comes to mind in each
question

1. Always make you laugh.
--> xiaoting
2. Always make you angry.
--> my brother
3. Always makes fun of you
--> xiaoting
4. Always be there for you
--> Jesus!yvonne tang+hopies
5. Always buy present for you
--> no one in mind specifically but soph & dehui always write cards to me:)
6. Always hangout with you
--> soph,luan,xt,dehui,rach fong,lirong,yvonne,shue li,lin na, jess wee, sarah etc
7. Always smile at you
--> xt,soph,rach fong
8. Always pay for you
--> recently is faith.. hahas, usually i'm not tt broke..
9. Always drive you around
--> my dad n the bus driver, hahas
10. Always ask yOu homework question
--> xt
11. Always need your help
--> soph
12. Always make you wait
--> SOPH!!!nvm, i believe she's changing:)
13. Always sleep in class
--> xt
14. Always cannot make up his/her mind
--> soph, always want ppl scissors, paper, stone with her..o.O
15. Always late for class
--> in the morn is xt & soph, recess is xt, soph,luan, me & nana(natatsha)
16. Never take a bus/train/aeroplane
--> bus:hilary
17. Has messy hair
--> me...
18. Untidy
--> lots of ppl
19. Someone you love?
--> Jesus
20. Last but not the least... any idol?
--> Jesus:)

2004-06-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

today was a stony day fer me...
woke up early fer piano lesson at 9.15am...
played badly tho t'cher said i improved a teeny winny bit
piano practical exams is only 2 mths away
gosh, i can't even play all the 3 pieces yet...
lemme be optimistic...

after tt, went orchard to meet up with linna n yvonne
i tot supposed to be lotsa ppl but in the end left 3 of us only
hiaz... walk here n there fer hrs... brgt sum stuff fer myself...

it was still early so i decided to go home first
my dad sent me fer tuition
one amazing thing during tuition is tt i nv really talk
tt's beside asking t'cher questions...
i was really quiet... serious, no joke
i did confirmation during tuition...
sms-ed lots of ppl but only 3 ppl replied
oh, my junior is cuming:)
she might be bringing her frens along too...
hope tmr's comfirmation wld be even better:)

anyway, i jus realised
-nominations is nxt week...
oops, haven been practising my drill commands
dun wanna malu myself in front of the whole band
-chinese O levels oral n listening is 2 wks away
-there's a chinese test on all sec 3 express wrds on the third day of sch n i haven started studying it
-sch re-opening soon n v soon
n i have lotsa unfinished hw... really tons of them
gosh, am i too paranoid or have i been enjoying hols
too much tt i'm oblivious to all these things tt r gonna take place soon?
i made up mind... nxt wk shall be a mugging wk fer me...

2004-06-16T01:31:00.000+08:00

wah, it's so late le...
i'm sleepy, jus finishing printing bulletin fer cg tmr.
oh man, i really excited fer cg tmr..
we 're having steamboat!!!
the best thing is we hit SEVEN fer cg!!!]
praise the Lord!
there's gonna be a great revival in st nix n a breakthru' in anderson, amen?
katarina, come'on take care of God's flock...
things are jus getting better:)
the glory of the present hse will be greater than the former hse:)

anyway, jiancong v lame...
below an extract of our conversation(it's edited)
expecting a harvest says:
hi eh sorry ar, r u free? dun mind can recommend sum fun games?
50 macho biblical brothers in NEA by end Aug!!! the first sub-district of pure brothers! says:
www.neopets.com ? lol.. got alot games there quite fun
expecting a harvest says:
... o.O cg games lar!!!
50 macho biblical brothers in NEA by end Aug!!! the first sub-district of pure brothers! says:
ohhhhhhhh cheyyyy

v lame hor... hahas

2004-06-14T11:35:00.000+08:00

yay! i'm being water baptised on 13th June 2004!
tt was yesterday... hahas, v lame...
the current was rather strong...
after being baptised, being really happy n excited
i ran to the shore... den...
i fell down...o.O hahas, so lame... siewluan laughed at me...
i announced tt i'm dead to myself and Christ lives in me!
my name is noe Lee Yi Hui Melanie Joy
melanie means child of God. i wanna remind myself to have faith
like a little child.believing in everything tt God wants me
to do.yah, i noe it doesn't suit me but, God showed me to use this name
so i tink there's a reason behind it lar...
joy is chosen too bcos after knowing God i found
much joy n many ppl noe me as a cheerful girl so yup...

tink i'm gonna do sum hw b4 going WFL...
anyway, watched harry potter with jocelyn(rach.fong) n alice(dehui)
i tink it's a nice show... i tink many wud beg to differ but nvm...
zhao~

2004-06-10T16:14:00.000+08:00

woah, i'm jus got back frm the vision driven life church camp!
the camp is fantastic!!!
it's really a life changing camp fer me:)
really learnt lots of things gonna re-cap ltr part in another entry...
anyway, jus got back frm northpoint for lunch at bk
went with xt, soph, sunny, clarence & xueyong...
i feel really bloated still...

during the camp, God gave me a vision...
u noe in nexus auditorium, there are blue & green seats rite?
God challenged me to take care of one row of blue seats of ppl
which is abt 2 rows of green seats by end Jan 2005

yup, ltr gonna blog the rest of the stuff i learnt n responded to

2004-06-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

i'm back! hahas.. i'm going off again for youth camp!!
anyway, JB camp is v lame...
learnt lots of stuff too
got to know sum sisters and brothers better too...
fell sick too.. but got healed by God today!
Praise God!

v lazy to blog abt it...
can ask me wad happen
yay:) see u tmr fer youth camp

2004-05-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

discussing the debate thingy with xt now
tmr having debate during eng lessons
"our hse believes tt women make better parents than men"
we are the opposition...
oh man, so difficult... guess wad? i'm the 3rd speaker...
gosh!!! i dunno how to rebutt... thank God fer puay's help:)

i'm soooo excited...
11 days to JB camp
i'm looking forward to this wk svc too!!!
hilarious inn
i'm really convicted to walk down the aisle
during altar call with sumone this wk...

went to buy stuff fer JB camp...
bought 2 T-shirt frm 37 degrees
tmr going with rach fong to buy converse pullover n m)phosis flip flops
wah, i v spendthirft... my dad give me money ma:)

really hope this wk will have normal cg...
i really want everyone to cum
i wanna have a breakthru' in cg attendance
hope to see them...
-prays hard-