today's been a bad day fer me...
things dun seem to go right... or maybe it's jus me
was so frustrated many times today tt i broke down...

i got accused during band prac fer "being rude" and "being playful"
wadev.. i'm NOT being rude, it's jus the way i speak...
and i NEVER even say jokes during band prac so how can u say i'm not serious?
pls do not judge things in yr own viewpt... dun be too judgemental
if i did i'll admit, i'm jus so flabbergasted by yr accusation..
after so many yrs of frenship, u still dun noe wad kind of person i am?
i'm so disappointed.. really sad... u've really broken my heart.
maybe we need to talk things out...

nxt, katarina msged me tt she's ill and she can't go fer svc
so her two contacts dun wanna come as well...
another blow... cause my heart to bleed once again...
confirmation was alr bad enough.

following were minor stuff which i dun wanna elaborate much
but these things intensify the pain.. adding on... so unbearable.
i was sorta in a emotional turmoil... it was hurting so so badly

but thk God fer eelee
she saw tt i wasn't the usual self
she came to encourage me on and spur me on...
thx eelee, i can't ever thk you enough fer.. you're really a great ldr:)
a wonderful blessing tt God has placed in my life

i decided...
i'll move on frm these...
start off all over again...
cos when i look to God,
all these circumstances will fade away:)