it really saddens me
i dunno wad made ppl choose tt path
tt forbidden path.
think fer yrself
is it worthwhile?
ya, i'll nv comprehend
wadever.

today was qt a boring day.
went pamela's hse.
real nice hse. so cosy.
played mahjong and i WON.
hahas.
den went a no of places to walk.
played pranks
real hilarious
tt was to escape boredom
and reveal our true cheeky selves
wahahas

chinese new year has become an absolutely meaningless occasion
ok, perhaps not completely but it's like jus visiting relatives
but yet not really getting to noe them better
it's like sitting in their living rooms and stone

ok tmr got company dinner
looking forward to shark's fin and hongbaos
heh. no other stuff to look forward.
saturday have to go aunt's hse.
crap.begged so tt i cld go svc
ok, not begged, pleaded.
now my dad noes when's the svc held.
hai. hopes he doesn't restricts me in time to come
when the O's approaches

feel like slacking but i can't..
have to be diligent and study hard
ok, have to discipline myself
let me be a NERD fer JESUS :D
let me delight in studying n serving him.
tt shall be it:D

oh mans, it's all settled..
i'll be dropping piano fer the moment till the Os are over.
feel kinda sad even tho i always say i dun like piano
i'll missing my t'cher lots lars...
hai.. wad's the big deal abt Os?
every single one is making a fuss out of it..

bcos of Os:
-i most probably wun be able to go fer family church camp
-go back to sch during the first 2 wks of June hols
-attend sum costly seminars during June
-do so many tys.
-i'm mugging like mad.
-have tuition

i feel like i've completely lost my freedom.
ok, it's not tt serious.
lemme find strength in you.
strength to carry on with life.
it's far too draining.
but i noe you'll be there for me:)