SATURDAY
the 15th anniversary reminded me of many many memorable events when i was young in the church. looking back, i can nv be more grateful that i am in a church, serving the Lord and especially in Hope Church (:
i'm proud to be a christian and a hoppie (:
however, i was a little upset cos my ex sheeps wasn't keen on cmg. didn't really contact most of them cos they are having prelims but the one i wanted most to come didn't turn up afterall.

SUNDAY
i shared my conviction and values in ulm. was really quite scary. oblivious to most of the ppl, my hands trembled a little. opps. anw, through sharing i really re-convict myself of this belief that i have -- the belief that Jesus is the way, i can be a world changer, i can impact ppl's lives in a big way through my role in His kingdom.
what i touched me most ytd was that eelee msged me. she said,"... i was v encouraged by my testimony and so touched by wad God has done ... will always rmb walking with you to istana park and encouraging you that you can be a shpd..."
YES, i can rmb that day. was so discouraged cos i badly want to be a shpd and yet after working hard, no fruits came. then, eelee came to empwr me. wow, that was like 3 years back.
almost cried when i read the msg. was touched by God's faithfulness as well as how eelee really impacted my life so so so much. she's really one great ldr that i admire a lot, and i want to follow her footsteps as she follow God. without her, probably i wldn't be ard in church or maybe i'll jus be a mediocre christian playing some insignificant role in the church.

MONDAY
i felt @(*#@)(!_@)!*$@($*#$&@#)!@(*@&#(*@#&@(*#@ after gg to bcc to study.
uhm those who were there might know why.
sry wad an anti-climax way to end.
haha.
God bless (:

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame
Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, "daughter" and "son"
Wrapped in the robe of righteousnes

i pray you'll come home soon.

woohoo. i went out with sophia for dinner jus now.
great time together.
got to catch up with each other's lives.
laughed and ate prata. hurhur.
love ya sophia : ))))))))))

you have been appearing quite frequently in my mind lately.
wondering how have you been,
for the past mths.
are you getting on fine?
hope that i'll get to see you again,
some time soon.
though we're not -that- close,
i miss you quite a bit.
somehow, i haven't really gotten over it.
pray you'll find yr way home soon

it hurts.

really hard to defend this faith at times.
to say the truth, it didn't feel good at all.
sometimes, it's altogether draining to endure their persecution.
it hurts to see their eyes of disapproval and disappointment
it annoys me to hear how cynical and skeptical they speak of you and God.

the world thinks you're insane for committing to church.
the world is looking at you constantly, trying to find fault with you and Jesus.

In the quiet
In the stillness
I know that You are God
In the secret of Your presence
I know there I am restored
When You call i won't refuse
Each new day again I'll choose
In the chaos
In confusion
I know You're sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will
When You call I won't delay
This my song through all my days

2 Corinthians 4:2
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.