to the special you:
for the past few days, i keep thinking abt you.
all the things you like, stuff you wld do,
just everything abt you.
i really really miss you.
i wonder will i get a chance to see you agn.
given another chance,
i'll treasure and cherish you more than ever.

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to you whom i used to trust:
i feel betrayed by you.
all along i've been deceived by you.
now i finally see who you are really are.
disappointing, utterly.
so this is what our friendship was all abt.
i feel kinda disgusted.
so all along who am i to you? a fool?
i hope one day you'll come to yr senses
and apologise for all you've done.

today my mood has really reached pit bottom.
feel helpless and uncertain.
what does the future hold for me?
having lots of mixed feelings.
on one hand, i feel glad that i have the family of God to go through this with me
most imptly, i have God
but somehow singing "God will make a way" only managed to pacify my heart for a few moments and that's it.
on the other hand, it's pessimism, fear, hurts and what have you.

i'm sure i'm in for a big "treat".
time of testings and trials.
time to learn to have joy in God unconditionally.
time to fix my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of my faith.
time to let the wog lead me rather than my emotions.
it's time for growth.

oh Lord, how?
i have no one else to turn to.

WWJD
What Would Jesus Do?